ii LOVE you; my SILENT screams

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

If you want me, don't let me fall. If you love me, prove it to me. "Then what if I love and want you, but you don't love and want me?" If that's what you think of me, then maybe you should start realizing that I never stopped loving you. If you ever jump, I'll catch you the second you do, I will prove my love to you, it's just a matter of time whether you see it or not, because my silence is my sound. Only depends whether you can hear it.

If you never stepped into my life, I would've been in a mess. If I didn't talk to you, maybe you would've permanently left my life, while I was still changing. Because during that process, all I thought of was you, but when you suddenly disappeared one day, I got lost. It's like a room, while I finally had someone to talk to, he disappeared the next day, and never came back. I would have maybe, even died if you were gone forever... This room is losing its light once again, and I can never seem to switch the lights... Rainstorms are brewing, my heart is breaking, my eyes are tearing, my smile is fading, and my sorrow is flowing... What would've happened, if you loved me? Will everything change? Will I see light once again?

"You do know that I will walk out of your life, one day, forever..." "Well... I can't do anything about it, now can I..?" "Yea..." While I said that, all that was on my mind, was about you. I won't want to watch you go, and you know it... If I could, I'd hug you tight, I don't ever wish to let you go. I wish time could go back, to the exact same day that I first saw you... I wish I could go back, to the time I first went on a date with you... I wish I could go back, to the time I first talked to you... I wish I could go back, to the time we first said "Good Night" to each other. I wish we never met, because you came into my life just to change me. I don't want that. I want you to love me for what I am, but since I'm not your perfect girl, I'll forcibly change myself to the one you'll love.

The light in my room is fading... As you're going... On my birthday, will you play a song for me..? Will you meet me at my house? Will you let me hug you? Will you, let me kiss you? Will you, say that you've accepted me for what I have become for you? Will you, be mine? Or will you always just reject me, you may think it's less hurtful, but it's, for some reason, much more painful that what you think it would be, it is, for some reason, more painful than letting me wait for an answer, it is more painful than what you can ever imagine...

You say the monster in your heart is dying to come out, and one day, if it does, I'll give my everything to turn you back into your original state... I'd willingly give up everything for you, because all I will desire, is your love, is your trust... You never knew, but my beast that is within me is also, mentally, tearing me apart as I change... It hurts so much, but I bore with it, because I always tell myself that I want you...

You're the one who's helping me to change, you're the one who wants me to change, you're the one whom I want to be with. You're the one I will love forever. You're the one I'd give up everything for...

Dream of Me, Make Me Yours Now and Forever, I want to be everything, that you'll ever need... Your wildest dream, your fantasy. Your deepest kiss, your sweetest smile, the eyes that look into your soul. The one and only person you'll ever love. When the night comes, and darkness falls, I want to be there
to give you light and warmth. To glow in your heart, when the rain pours, and I'm standing in the cold. Waiting for you, I want you to come and shelter me and whisper in my ear, "I Love You".

End of Post <3 @ 3:11 PM

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About

Name:

Wong Yi Lin
Date of Birth; Zodiac; Horoscope:

160997; Ox; Virgo, the Virgin
Personality:

Emotional, Pessimistic
Motto:

Never assume you know everything

Don't pretend to understand
Loves:

Anime, Animals, Friends
Hates:

People who are not trustworthy,
Childish, Backstabbing etc
Relationship Status:

Single

Schools:

Kheng Cheng School;
~~P1.7 '04~~
~~P2.7 '05~~
~~P3.7 '06~~
~~P4.4 '07~~
~~P5.3 '08~~
~~P6.3 '09~~

Balestier Hill Secondary;
1E2 '10

Co-Curricular Activity;
~~Art Club, Crafts~~
~~Chess Club~~
Chinese Orchestra
~~Green Club~~
~~Lion Dance~~

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Loved Ones

MEET THE PEEPS I LOVE !

AISHITERU ! ♥

AMANI ; BESTIIE HUSBAND !
FANXING ; GAN ER ZI !
JONATHAN.C ; BESTIIE KOR !
JONIE.G ; GAN MEI !
KENIKO.T ; GAN DADDY !
RACHEL.S ; GAN JIE !
SARAH ; GAN JIE !
WINNY.P ; BESTIIE AIAI !
ZHICHENG ; GAN AH-PA !

ANZOE.H ; GAN MEI !
DALYNN ; GAN JIE !
JETJIN ; GAN KOR !
MINHAO ; GAN KOR !
WINNIE.L ; GAN JIE !
XIAOFANG ; GAN JIE !

BAKA BAKA ! ♥

ABEL.L ; GAN KOR !
AINUL.S ; DINOSAURR !
ARINA ; GAN NU ER !
FENNA.H ; GAN MEI !
HAFIZ ; EMO EMO !
KRISTOPHER.A ; KIIRA !
LARISSA.G ; GAN JIE !
NATTHIDA.T ; GAN MEI !
WESLEY.T ; GAN AH-PA !
YONGJUN ; TEDDYBEARR!

JACK.S ; GAN KOR !
JINGHUI ; GAN JIE !
QIHONG ; GAN KOR !
SHENGHAO ; GAN KOR !
SHOHIB ; GAN ER ZII !
WENQING ; GAN JIE !

SHAGUAS ! ♥

ALEXANDRELA EUNICE ; GAN JIE !
ALICIA.T ; GAN JIE !
ALVIN.L ; GAN KOR !
ARKAR.T ; GAN KOR !
AZLAN ; GAN DADDY !
HAZIQ ; GAN MA !
JAY.F ; PIGGY OINKK !
SHAWN.H ; GAN KOR !

DEVI ; GAN JIE !
GRACE.T ; SCARYY !
LORENZO.G ; GAN KOR !
MAHIN ; GAN JIE !
SABINE ; SINGERR !
SINYEE ; FLYINGG FISH !
XINRONG ; GAN JIE !
YANCHING ; GAN JIE !
YUSUF ; JOKERR !
ZIEGLER ; GAN KOR !

Grievances

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Acquaintances

KCS:
KCS P6.3 '09 ♥
Alison ♥
Anzoe ♥
Charissa ♥
Claire Liew ♥
Claire Wong ♥
Germaine ♥
Isabelle ♥
Jamine ♥
Jonie ♥
Kailin ♥
Monica ♥
Natsumi ♥
Nichapat ♥
Rochelle ♥
Selina ♥
Sheena ♥
Sing Ying ♥
Tze Wan ♥
Violet ♥
Wan Ling ♥
Wei Jun ♥
Winnie ♥
Yvette ♥

BHSS:
4E1 '09 Batch ♥
Abigail ♥
Adelle ♥
Agnes ♥
Ainul ♥
Alexandrela Eunice Valentino Rae ♥
Alicia ♥
Amani ♥
Arina ♥
Azman ♥
Ban Siang ♥
Beatrice ♥
Cai Xuan ♥
Dawn ♥
Diana ♥
Derek ♥
Edwin ♥
Eunice Lim ♥
Hafiz ♥
Hui Shan ♥
Ivy ♥
Janice ♥
Jasmine ♥
Javin ♥
Jiaru ♥
Jiayean ♥
Jin Hui ♥
Jonathan ♥
Jun Huang ♥
Kim Hong ♥
Mahin ♥
Melissa ♥
Mern An ♥
Ming Fu ♥
Muan Ting ♥
Naomi ♥
Natalie Hue ♥
Natalie Loh ♥
Patrine ♥
Qi Tian ♥
Rujiana ♥
Ryo Yamamoto ♥
Shangzhi ♥
Sin Yee ♥
Sing Ying ♥
Vanessa ♥
Wayne ♥
WendyN ♥
Winny ♥
Winny's Blogshop ♥
Yanching ♥
Yin Teng ♥
Ying Xia ♥
Yu Liang ♥
Yuen Yern ♥
Yuke Jen ♥
Yusuf ♥
Zhung An ♥

Others:
Known via Internet:
Agnes ♥
As Ahmad ♥
Cynthia ♥
Dana ♥
Erica ♥
Esther ♥
Phoebe ♥
Qing ♥
Theresa ♥
Yuqian ♥
Friends (Met Face-to-face):
Jay ♥
Teng Yao ♥
XiaoFang ♥
Celebrity Blogger:
Dasmond Koh
Felicia Chin (1)
Felicia Chin (2)
Jeanette Aw
Joanna Peh
Zheng Bin Hui

Wishes

School:

~~200+ for PSLE !~~ ♥

A1 ~ A2 for English ! ♥

~~Able to have Recess w/ Seniors~~ ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Adam ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Alicia ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Catherine ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Chang Long ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Eunice ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Hafiz ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Janice ! ♥

~~Able to meet and talk to Kristopher~~ ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Li Ting ! ♥

~~Able to meet and talk to Sarah !~~ ♥

Able to meet and talk to Terrence ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Xin Rong ! ♥

~~Able to meet and talk to Yan Ching~~ ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Yusuf ! ♥

Able to meet and talk to Yu Liang ! ♥

Continue in Express until Graduate ! ♥

Get 24 Points & Above for NAPFA ! ♥

Good Results for SA ! ♥

Outings:

AFA '10 ! ♥

Chalet Party '10 ! ♥

~~Go out with DaJie, Ty and QH~~ ! ♥

Go out to Bugis with Jon, DaJie and Ty !
1 , 2, 3 ! ♥

Go out w/ Dearest Friends on B'day ! ♥

~~Go out w/ Friends in Holidays~~ ! ♥

Go back to KCS @ TCY ! ♥

Go to Japan ! ♥

Go to next Class Gathering ! ♥

~~Go to Siloso Beach~~ ! ♥

Go to Sunway Lagoon ! ♥

Go to Wild-Wild Wet ! ♥

~~Go watch Toy Story 3~~ ! ♥

Outing w/ P6.3 '09 ! ♥

Outing w/ Alicia ! ♥

Outing w/ Amani ! ♥

Outing w/ Anzoe ! ♥

~~Outing w/ Fan Xing~~ ! ♥

Outing w/ Jonathan ! ♥

Outing w/ Jonie ! ♥

Outing w/ Natsumi ! ♥

Outing w/ QH ! ♥

Outing w/ Sarah ! ♥

~~Outing w/ Teng Yao~~ ! ♥

Outing w/ Winnie ! ♥

~~Outing w/ Xiaofang~~ ! ♥

New Stuff:

Class Tee 1e2; 6.3 ! ♥

Gasing ! ♥

GIANT Lollipop ! ♥

A Room of my own ! ♥

~~New Schoolbag~~ ! ♥

New Cap ! ♥

~~New Clothes~~ ! ♥

New Handphone ! ♥

New Hard Disk ! ♥

New Hat ! ♥

New Headphones ! ♥

New Hoodie ! ♥

New Jacket ! ♥

New Laptop ! ♥

New Mini-skirt ! ♥

New Polo-Tee ! ♥

New Slippers ! ♥

~~New Skirt~~ ! ♥

New Sneakers ! ♥

Practice-room for Er Hu ! ♥

Roy Mustang's Glove ! ♥

~~Sketch Book !~~ ♥

Sketches:

Sketch Akabane ! ♥

Sketch Arbiter ! ♥

Sketch Allen Walker ! ♥

Sketch Ban ! ♥

Sketch Envy ! ♥

Sketch Full-Metal ! ♥

Sketch Ginji ! ♥

Sketch Greed ! ♥

SKetch Himiko ! ♥

Sketch Inuyasha ! ♥

Sketch Jasdero ! ♥

Sketch Kanda Yu ! ♥

Sketch Kagome ! ♥

Sketch Kazuki ! ♥

Sketch Lust ! ♥

Sketch MakubeX ! ♥

Sketch Naruto ! ♥

Sketch Roy Mustang ! ♥

Sketch Sasuke ! ♥

Sketch Shido ! ♥

Sketch Sloth ! ♥

Sketch Wrath ! ♥

Sketch Nice Anime ! ♥

Others:

Be with the guy I love ! ♥

Cook a dish for Him ! ♥

Find my True Friends ! ♥

~~Find the Right Guy~~ ! ♥

~~Forget the Past~~ ! ♥

~~Get into Performing Arts~~ ! ♥

~~Get to know good seniors~~ ! ♥

Learn Japanese ! ♥

Learn Sign Language ! ♥

~~Meet Xiaofang's Cousin~~ ! ♥

More Open-minded ! ♥

More Freedom ! ♥

More Money ! ♥

~~No Hot-temper~~ ! ♥

No Violence ! ♥

~~Sun-burn gone~~ ! ♥

~~"Love-wound" to heal~~ ! ♥

Credits

History

April 2010
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