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Monday, June 21, 2010

To see your smile , that's all I want ... I want to see , your pure smile . One that can tell me that you're happy , one that says that you're fine . I don't even know how long it has been , since I've seen your smile . The beauty , that smile can bring ... Your smile is all I want to see ... You once told me the reason of my sadness and happiness at the same time ..."Happy , because I am happy . Sad , because I'm not yours ." I thought back on many things , but they all bring me back to you ... 

While I was thinking back on my dark memories , I saw you , glaring angrily at me . It was like you didn't want me to think of it , and because I did , you were mad at me ... While I was closing my eyes , I saw you , with an innocent look , looking at me with a slight smile . And when I dreamed that I gave you a present that you've always wanted , you gave me a grin . But when I reminded you of your past , I saw a tear roll down your cheek . You slowly moved away , and while I was trying to reach for you , you shouted at me : "I hate you! I never want to see you again!" I cried so much ...

Those memories could never fade , but it can be put behind my mind . Maybe this way , you'll see my pure smile , the one that you wanted me to have , in the process of changing me . You didn't manage to change me , you let me do what I wanted . I didn't know what I was doing at all , I thought you wanted this , I did everything that I first thought of , because I was like a body without its head , walking aimlessly around ... 

I tear , I smile , I laugh , I frown , but none of them truly represent the way I feel ... This world , to me , is filled with jealousy and hatred ... I miss you a lot , I want to hug you , I want to kiss you , I want to hold you tight , never letting you go . Your warm embrace , your luscious lips , beyond your wildest dreams ... I want to go out with you , one more time . I dream of the day , that you and I are on the beach , together . You hug me tight , and kiss my lips , and whisper in my ear "I love you" ... Oh it's only beyond my dreams ...

And this is to Andric, though he won't be seeing this:
I'm sorry, but I just don't love you. Those feelings just isn't there... Stop trying, just walk away. Just smile and laugh everything off, as you said you would. Your siblings will be there for you, I know it. So just relax, turn the page, and never look back... Remember you're yourself, forget about me. Don't ever think of me ever again, for your wound, will once again open up... Farewell...  


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Name:

  • Wong Yi Lin
    Date of Birth; Zodiac; Horoscope:
  • 160997; Ox; Virgo, the Virgin
    Personality:
  • Emotional, Pessimistic
    Motto:
  • Never assume you know everything
  • Don't pretend to understand
    Loves:
  • Anime, Animals, Friends
    Hates:
  • People who are not trustworthy,
    Childish, Backstabbing etc
    Relationship Status:
  • Single


    Schools:

    Kheng Cheng School;
    P1.7 '04
    P2.7 '05
    P3.7 '06
    P4.4 '07
    P5.3 '08
    P6.3 '09

    Balestier Hill Secondary;
    1E2 '10

    Co-Curricular Activity;
    Art Club, Crafts
    Chess Club
    Chinese Orchestra
    Green Club
    Lion Dance


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    MEET THE PEEPS I LOVE !



    AISHITERU ! ♥

    AMANI ; BESTIIE HUSBAND !
    FANXING ; GAN ER ZI !
    JONATHAN.C ; BESTIIE KOR !
    JONIE.G ; GAN MEI !
    KENIKO.T ; GAN DADDY !
    RACHEL.S ; GAN JIE !
    SARAH ; GAN JIE !
    WINNY.P ; BESTIIE AIAI !
    ZHICHENG ; GAN AH-PA !

    ANZOE.H ; GAN MEI !
    DALYNN ; GAN JIE !
    JETJIN ; GAN KOR !
    MINHAO ; GAN KOR !
    WINNIE.L ; GAN JIE !
    XIAOFANG ; GAN JIE !

    BAKA BAKA ! ♥

    ABEL.L ; GAN KOR !
    AINUL.S ; DINOSAURR !
    ARINA ; GAN NU ER !
    FENNA.H ; GAN MEI !
    HAFIZ ; EMO EMO !
    KRISTOPHER.A ; KIIRA !
    LARISSA.G ; GAN JIE !
    NATTHIDA.T ; GAN MEI !
    WESLEY.T ; GAN AH-PA !
    YONGJUN ; TEDDYBEARR!

    JACK.S ; GAN KOR !
    JINGHUI ; GAN JIE !
    QIHONG ; GAN KOR !
    SHENGHAO ; GAN KOR !
    SHOHIB ; GAN ER ZII !
    WENQING ; GAN JIE !

    SHAGUAS ! ♥

    ALEXANDRELA EUNICE ; GAN JIE !
    ALICIA.T ; GAN JIE !
    ALVIN.L ; GAN KOR !
    ARKAR.T ; GAN KOR !
    AZLAN ; GAN DADDY !
    HAZIQ ; GAN MA !
    JAY.F ; PIGGY OINKK !
    SHAWN.H ; GAN KOR !

    DEVI ; GAN JIE !
    GRACE.T ; SCARYY !
    LORENZO.G ; GAN KOR !
    MAHIN ; GAN JIE !
    SABINE ; SINGERR !
    SINYEE ; FLYINGG FISH !
    XINRONG ; GAN JIE !
    YANCHING ; GAN JIE !
    YUSUF ; JOKERR !
    ZIEGLER ; GAN KOR !


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  • KCS:
    KCS P6.3 '09 ♥
    Alison ♥
    Anzoe ♥
    Charissa ♥
    Claire Liew ♥
    Claire Wong ♥
    Germaine ♥
    Isabelle ♥
    Jamine ♥
    Jonie ♥
    Kailin ♥
    Monica ♥
    Natsumi ♥
    Nichapat ♥
    Rochelle ♥
    Selina ♥
    Sheena ♥
    Sing Ying ♥
    Tze Wan ♥
    Violet ♥
    Wan Ling ♥
    Wei Jun ♥
    Winnie ♥
    Yvette ♥
  • BHSS:
    4E1 '09 Batch ♥
    Abigail ♥
    Adelle ♥
    Agnes ♥
    Ainul ♥
    Alexandrela Eunice Valentino Rae ♥
    Alicia ♥
    Amani ♥
    Arina ♥
    Azman ♥
    Ban Siang ♥
    Beatrice ♥
    Cai Xuan ♥
    Dawn ♥
    Diana ♥
    Derek ♥
    Edwin ♥
    Eunice Lim ♥
    Hafiz ♥
    Hui Shan ♥
    Ivy ♥
    Janice ♥
    Jasmine ♥
    Javin ♥
    Jiaru ♥
    Jiayean ♥
    Jin Hui ♥
    Jonathan ♥
    Jun Huang ♥
    Kim Hong ♥
    Mahin ♥
    Melissa ♥
    Mern An ♥
    Ming Fu ♥
    Muan Ting ♥
    Naomi ♥
    Natalie Hue ♥
    Natalie Loh ♥
    Patrine ♥
    Qi Tian ♥
    Rujiana ♥
    Ryo Yamamoto ♥
    Shangzhi ♥
    Sin Yee ♥
    Sing Ying ♥
    Vanessa ♥
    Wayne ♥
    WendyN ♥
    Winny ♥
    Winny's Blogshop ♥
    Yanching ♥
    Yin Teng ♥
    Ying Xia ♥
    Yu Liang ♥
    Yuen Yern ♥
    Yuke Jen ♥
    Yusuf ♥
    Zhung An ♥
  • Others:
    Known via Internet:
    Agnes ♥
    As Ahmad ♥
    Cynthia ♥
    Dana ♥
    Erica ♥
    Esther ♥
    Phoebe ♥
    Qing ♥
    Theresa ♥
    Yuqian ♥
    Friends (Met Face-to-face):
    Jay ♥
    Teng Yao ♥
    XiaoFang ♥
    Celebrity Blogger:
    Dasmond Koh
    Felicia Chin (1)
    Felicia Chin (2)
    Jeanette Aw
    Joanna Peh
    Zheng Bin Hui
    Wishes


    School:

    200+ for PSLE ! ♥
    A1 ~ A2 for English ! ♥
    Able to have Recess w/ Seniors ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Adam ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Alicia ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Catherine ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Chang Long ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Eunice ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Hafiz ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Janice ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Kristopher ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Li Ting ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Sarah ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Terrence ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Xin Rong ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Yan Ching ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Yusuf ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Yu Liang ! ♥
    Continue in Express until Graduate ! ♥
    Get 24 Points & Above for NAPFA ! ♥
    Good Results for SA ! ♥


    Outings:

    AFA '10 ! ♥
    Chalet Party '10 ! ♥
    Go out with DaJie, Ty and QH ! ♥
    Go out to Bugis with Jon, DaJie and Ty !
    1 , 2, 3 ! ♥
    Go out w/ Dearest Friends on B'day ! ♥
    Go out w/ Friends in Holidays ! ♥
    Go back to KCS @ TCY ! ♥
    Go to Japan ! ♥
    Go to next Class Gathering ! ♥
    Go to Siloso Beach ! ♥
    Go to Sunway Lagoon ! ♥
    Go to Wild-Wild Wet ! ♥
    Go watch Toy Story 3 ! ♥
    Outing w/ P6.3 '09 ! ♥
    Outing w/ Alicia ! ♥
    Outing w/ Amani ! ♥
    Outing w/ Anzoe ! ♥
    Outing w/ Fan Xing ! ♥
    Outing w/ Jonathan ! ♥
    Outing w/ Jonie ! ♥
    Outing w/ Natsumi ! ♥
    Outing w/ QH ! ♥
    Outing w/ Sarah ! ♥
    Outing w/ Teng Yao ! ♥
    Outing w/ Winnie ! ♥
    Outing w/ Xiaofang ! ♥


    New Stuff:

    Class Tee 1e2; 6.3 ! ♥
    Gasing ! ♥
    GIANT Lollipop ! ♥
    A Room of my own ! ♥
    New Schoolbag ! ♥
    New Cap ! ♥
    New Clothes ! ♥
    New Handphone ! ♥
    New Hard Disk ! ♥
    New Hat ! ♥
    New Headphones ! ♥
    New Hoodie ! ♥
    New Jacket ! ♥
    New Laptop ! ♥
    New Mini-skirt ! ♥
    New Polo-Tee ! ♥
    New Slippers ! ♥
    New Skirt ! ♥
    New Sneakers ! ♥
    Practice-room for Er Hu ! ♥
    Roy Mustang's Glove ! ♥
    Sketch Book ! ♥


    Sketches:

    Sketch Akabane ! ♥
    Sketch Arbiter ! ♥
    Sketch Allen Walker ! ♥
    Sketch Ban ! ♥
    Sketch Envy ! ♥
    Sketch Full-Metal ! ♥
    Sketch Ginji ! ♥
    Sketch Greed ! ♥
    SKetch Himiko ! ♥
    Sketch Inuyasha ! ♥
    Sketch Jasdero ! ♥
    Sketch Kanda Yu ! ♥
    Sketch Kagome ! ♥
    Sketch Kazuki ! ♥
    Sketch Lust ! ♥
    Sketch MakubeX ! ♥
    Sketch Naruto ! ♥
    Sketch Roy Mustang ! ♥
    Sketch Sasuke ! ♥
    Sketch Shido ! ♥
    Sketch Sloth ! ♥
    Sketch Wrath ! ♥
    Sketch Nice Anime ! ♥


    Others:

    Be with the guy I love ! ♥
    Cook a dish for Him ! ♥
    Find my True Friends ! ♥
    Find the Right Guy ! ♥
    Forget the Past ! ♥
    Get into Performing Arts ! ♥
    Get to know good seniors ! ♥
    Learn Japanese ! ♥
    Learn Sign Language ! ♥
    Meet Xiaofang's Cousin ! ♥
    More Open-minded ! ♥
    More Freedom ! ♥
    More Money ! ♥
    No Hot-temper ! ♥
    No Violence ! ♥
    Sun-burn gone ! ♥
    "Love-wound" to heal ! ♥


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