Monday, August 23, 2010
Url changed to: http://brokensoulz-fallenwings.blogspot.com
Link and tag, tyvm :D
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Monday, August 16, 2010
Yo ... Damn lazy to post =\ ...
Hm... 5 Days eh? Kay.
120810 , 130810 , 140810 , 150810: Lazy & Forgot.
160810:
One month from today, will be my birthday ... Will anyone remember? ):
So... Went to school, talked to a certain someone last night, remembered every single word I said and typed to him. (: Slacked with Arina, Ainul and Amani. Talked to Fan Xing, Keniko, Emmanuel and Winny. Got my name stickers - 120 for $10. :D So... Morning Assembly. Javin and another 2 people were sent out. =[ Then, before walking back, Mrs Lim caught me with my fringe and had me stay until I clipped it up. -.-
First, Sugu. Obviously, slacked. Amani said he stoned at Potato. -.- Slacked around, then P.E, also canceled. So, we had free period with no teacher around until 9.10a.m . Next, Home Economics. Talked to Vanessa about the dishes to plan with Indian ethnic dishes. Then, Recess. Solo-walk until 10.10a.m , before Amani walked me to the Foyer, but it was too boring, so I joined Fan Xing.
Then, after Fan Xing went to the toilet, I walked to the Foyer again and started memorizing the letter for the Chinese Test. Then, double Chinese period. Died doing the test. -.- The comprehension was of total logic that owned my brain. >:( Next, double Science. Went to the Science Laboratory, slacked and did work, talked to Fan Xing, Abigail, Jet Jin, Yong Jun, Devi and Min Hao. (: Doodled on my Science Workbook. o_o"
Next, Mathematics. Lawrence Lim didn't come, Mr Loh took relief. Played around with Yong Jun, Fan Xing, Hiran, Abigail, Keniko and Amani. :3 Then, form teacher period. Colored stuff and passed it to Melissa. Walked out after school ended, outside the class, saw Jonathan and Qi Hong. Wanted to wave at them, but didn't dare to.
Now, at home. Blogging, slacking. Yupp.
Oh yes, 2 interesting things happened today. (:
But ... Why does he like me ?
And ... Why did I do that ... ?
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
110810:
Went school, talked to Sheng Hao, said hi to Jonie, talked to Fan Xing, Amani and Min Hao. Then, slacked, Morning Assembly. Karamjit's talk, boring. Back to class, slacked. First, Sugu. Heck care. Next, double art. Took some photos related to art, but had a irrelevant image of Min Hao with his... Never mind. Slacked, Recess. Went with Fan Xing, Min Hao, Keniko, Zhi Cheng and Qi Rong as Amani, Arina and Ainul had to fast.
Talked to Fan Xing and the others, then walked to Amani at the Mac Tables. Slacked... Next, Mother Tongue. Died, of course. Then, double Mathematics. Did graph work, didn't even pay attention and Lawrence Lim wanted me to answer the question. -.- Slacked slacked slacked, then Music. Victor Goh didn't really care, only Fan Xing ran to Victor Goh and 'upgraded' himself.
Then, Geography. Talked, did work, got caught by teacher. Melissa got caught using her phone, Amani got caught making hand signs and talking to me. :P Sorry. Then, showed Miss Kang some 'stuff', so dead. Then, ate lunch in school due to heavy rain. Slacked around with Ainul, Amani and Fan Xing, did Mathematics revision. Talked about some stuff after Ainul went off.
Then, went home. Slacked, cried, emo-ed, ate, bathed, the ordinary. -.- Byes.
Signing Out,
Yi Lin (9.50p.m , Wednesday , 11 August 2010)
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Monday, August 9, 2010
Title: I love you mommy, but you don't love me ):
Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
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Sunday, August 8, 2010
August 7:
Mahin's birthday (: Happy birthday, girl!
So yea... Stayed at home, talked to people online on Facebook chat and Windows Live Messenger. Xiaoxiao and Xiaofang came, slacked around while I was munching on my snacks. Then, did all the ordinary stuff - Emo, bathe, eat, cry, sleep. Yupp. Slept at 11.50p.m ...
August 8:
Cheryl, Jonny and Joyce's birthday (: Happy birthday, guy and girls!
Then... Just woke up, went on to Facebook, liked some status, wrote on my wall, commented on other stuff, talk to Fan Xing on Facebook chat. So yea... Awaiting nothing but a more boring day...
If I cried , would you wipe my tears away ?
If I laughed , would you be the one who made me ?
If I was losing a lot of blood , would you save me ?
If I died , would you cry for me ?
If I longed for you , would you be here ?
If I said I was sick , would you believe me ?
If I was sick , would you cook something for me ?
If something happened , would you run here to save me ?
If I was scared , would you protect me ?
I think the answer to all that , judging by you , is 'no' .
Because you never cared , never bothered .
You only thought of your pain , you never agreed to anything I say .
So what am I to do now ? What can I do now ?
Tell me - what exactly do you want from me ..?
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Friday, August 6, 2010
Yo...
So ya.., woke up and went to school. Secondary 1 pupils had to put their bags in class, so went to class... Some stuff happened... Then, went to do the pla-card... Hyper with Amani and Mahin... Then went back... Geography, only 10 minutes... Next, P.E... Re-ran 2.4km with 18.20 minutes... Many thanks to Fan Xing, Amani, Fenna, Patrine and Sabine's support (: ... Then, Jeffrey Ang, did work...
Recess, hung with Arina and Amani... Ainul went for Service Leader stuff... Then, went to change then back to class... Sugu, did English Informal-Writing test... Then to Assembly... Garnet, Sapphire, Topaz and Emerald did some cheers... Japanese girls came to school and showed us a presentation... Kenneth, Ban Siang and another small kid were dancing for Sapphire...
Then.., went with Yong Jun, Abigail, Jet Jin and Fan Xing... Currently at the LAN shop, feeling really bored...
In the game of love;
There would be those who will be hurt,
Those that would think they're the happiest person in the world.
And these are the options;
Rejecting
Accepting
Making the person wait
Disappear from the person's life
And for the options, their effects;
Rejecting: Pain
Accepting: Elated
Making the person wait: WORST FEELING IN THE WHOLE WORLD
Disappear from the person's life: Avoiding and telling that person 'no'
Fan Xing, don't be sad. We'll be here for you, all of us. (:
No fucking mood to post anything else. Bye .
Signing Out,
Yi Lin (2.52p.m , Friday , 6 August 2010)
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Thursday, August 5, 2010
Today...
Went to school, hung around at the Canteen. Talked to Fan Xing, Abigail, Yong Jun, Crystal etc. Sheng Hao came and talked to me, after Jonathan left. Then, slacked until 7.10 before going to the Parade Square. Sat down, Morning Assembly. 4N went off, saw the same old people. Then, went to Science Lab with 5 minutes of Form-Teacher Period. Then, Science.
Jeffrey Ang had us look at the experimentation. Next, Mathematics. Did work, slacked around. Next, Mother Tongue. Did short passage test. Then, Recess. Hung with Arina, Amani and Ainul. Before reaching the Canteen, saw him. Keniko told me not to go to the Foyer. Then, Music. Slacked outside before seeing backstabbers. Took Jet Jin and Taufik's work as my punching bags. ):
Then, Victor Goh asked if I was the one he added on Facebook. I said yes, then took out my glasses to let him re-confirm. o.o Then, asked him to go out to chill for a while, just no violence. =\ Then, went back in and played the guitar with Zhi Cheng, Jet Jin, Min Hao and Amani. (: Upgraded to level 3, had to practice. Had Fan Xing's help to teach about Level 3. Thanks. :D
Then, Geography. Talked more about the world map and stuff. Next, Sugu. Didn't do anything but slack. -.- Lastly, Pastoral Care. Talked for 30 minutes about a survey. 10 minutes to do a worksheet. Karamjit and Freddie Chan came to take us to the Foyer. Did the pla-card again. Then, went to the classroom with Min Hao, Fan Xing and Amani.
Talked, then Fan Xing went off to his Australia Mathematics Quiz with Hsin Yu. Min Hao was with Alvin, Arkar and Lorenzo, so Amani and I went to 7-Eleven. Bought stuff, then went into classroom and slacked. Ainul came in to see us 'do our work'. Wrote on the board about tons of stuff. xD Then, slacked around until Min Hao came with Lorenzo, Alvin and Arkar.
Talked, slacked, then Fan Xing came in. Did work, played until 4.50p.m . Then, arranged the stuff back, went off. Amani and Ainul went off first, then me and Fan Xing. Talked at the curb of the road before going into the car, planned stuff and talked about others. (Don't worry, the secrets are safe.) (: Then, went home after waving goodbye to Fan Xing and Min Hao.
I can't close my eyes properly ,
Because all I see is you whenever I do .
Nothing anyone says or does will work .
My mind's made up - I'll just keep loving .
Fan Xing's words touched my heart ,
As I knew that he had loved for 8 months ,
He said he would wait forever ,
Until she has a boyfriend -
But he must be better than Fan Xing .
I'll do the same , I'll wait for you .
But I won't wait until you have another ,
One that I know , will be ten times better than me .
I'll wait until time ends ,
I'll wait forever if I must ,
Because I know I just can't put you behind my head .
But maybe , just maybe ,
These words would stop coming true ,
Because maybe , just maybe ,
I would have the courage to forget you ,
To never ever remember what I've done ,
To forget everything about you .
But I know I can't , because I love you .
I love you too deeply , that's all .
Sayonara .
Signing Out,
Yi Lin (6.50p.m , Thursday , 5 August 2010)
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Hm... Today...
Went to school, slacked around, didn't see any upper secondary from 4N3 nor 4T1. So yea... Morning Assembly, Karamjit talked more crap and stuff, then went back to class. First was Sugu. Slacked around, did stuff on informal and formal letter-writing. Test on Friday. Next two periods, Art. Hajjar had us do pop-art, drew and colored stuff, then Recess.
Was with Amani, but wanted to go solo for one day. She forbade me to. ): So, proceeded to Canteen. Halfway through, saw him while I was talking about him.
Me: It'll be really troublesome to see either one of them.
Amani: *Nods head*
Me: One finds me annoying, the other has severed his tie with me.
Him: Oi. Yo.
Me: Oh my god! *Runs away quickly with Amani*
Troublesome... Then, bought 2 bottles of Green Tea. Passed mine to Amani, while I went to him and slightly knocked his head with the Green Tea, then put the Green Tea on the Mac Table. Ran away... Ate with Amani, Arina and Ainul. Slacked around and walked to the curb of the road. Saw Fan Xing and Zhi Cheng. Walked to class with them.
Halfway, saw Arina, Amani and Ainul behind. At the bottom, played around with bottles. Threw bottles all around, mostly at Arina. xD Then, went back to class. Mother Tongue, screwed around with the China4 and talked back to Mrs Lim. :P Talked to Yong Jun and Abigail who were behind my seat. Then, Mathematics. Lawrence Lim. Damn him.
Did work, double period. He nearly confiscated my notebook. -.- Also, talked to Fan Xing who was standing thanks to his grades and the fact that he didn't know how to do the Mathematics question, but was punished. =\ Then, Music. Played the guitar with Fan Xing, Amani, Min Hao, Winny and myself. Potato was playing the piano. Whacked the shit out of Keniko.
Lastly, Geography. Did more work, saw short video clips of Madagascar and another one. Then, stayed back. Backstabber came into the room, held a hamster. Went off with Fan Xing, Abigail and Yong Jun, to Plaza Sing. Fan Xing went home to change, and came back while I was eating halfway. Then, talked about really weird stuff.
Then, finished eating and went to the shopping mall. Yong Jun and Abigail went off the other direction, while Fan Xing sent me back to Balestier Hill. Sorry, Fan Xing, and thanks. (: Talked to him about tons of stuff, then went back, he parted ways on the hill. Went to find Amani who was at Band. Saw Shohib and Haziq halfway. (:
Then, hung around with the clarinetists - Da Lynn, Amani, Arina, Effa and Grace. Jonie and Sharlene came to the clarinetists and talked to me before going back. Then, saw backstabber at the bus-stop. Went home and slacking now...
I've never thought of you as a nuisance ,
Never thought of anything bad related to you .
I feel so much sadness when you said I was annoying ,
I found it so damn hard to accept that fact .
I didn't dare to face that fact .
So , today , I tried doing it again .
I tried folding my skirt short again .
I tried so many damn things , you never noticed .
You never complimented .
You just thought of me as your puppet -
Something that you could have controlled ,
At your fingertip , at your every command .
The pain , I bore with it .
The sadness , I bore with it .
The love , I continued with it .
The hatred , I left it behind .
The passion , I continued with it .
The dreams , I continued with it .
The expectations , I bore with it .
I tried and tried , to make you notice .
Failing time and again ,
I couldn't help myself up ,
Only these few times did I realize ,
What is wrong , what is right .
But I forgot time and again ,
Whenever I saw you , your eyes ,
Hearing your words , your voice .
Remembering every single sentence ,
Every single word and apostrophe .
It nearly ruined me completely ,
But I knew my limits . I stopped whenever I had to .
But you made me continue , even without your words .
Please just accept me , please just approve of me .
Because I love you , it's just that I love you , it's that simple .
So please , I beg of you , just love me for what I am ...
Signing Out,
Yi Lin (5.54p.m , Wednesday , 4 August 2010)
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
So yea ... Today ...
Went school, sat down at Parade Square. Amani didn't come to the Parade Square. ): Slacked and slacked, entertained by Jet Jin and Fan Xing. (: Then, Morning Assembly. Next, 4N went to Hall. Saw the same old people - Jonathan, Hafiz, Kristopher, Sarah, Victor. Then, went to class. Slacked around until the bell went off, then kitchen. Baked rock buns today. :D But, Vanessa and I made PEBBLE buns! They were flat, but they were really really nice. <3
Stomachache halfway though. ): Made Vanessa do the mixing and the baking. Sorry. >< Then, lesson ended. Gave Fan Xing one, Min Hao and Yong Jun taking 1/2 each, and ate two. Was left with one, wanted to give him, but never mind. ): Then, Lawrence Lim. Did work, didn't hand in work, die die. -.- Then, Recess. Slacked around with Amani, Arina and Ainul. Ditched Arina halfway, went to class early.
Then, Sugu. Relief period, old man came in. -.- Played Truth or Dare with Min Hao, Fan Xing, Hiran, Amani and Winny. Mood swing, first time when I saw that BACKSTABBER outside the class. Vented anger out on Fan Xing's newly bought uniform, and Jet Jin. Sorry. Then, started to sleep... Double Sugu, went to dentist at the second lesson.
Went to dentist with Patrine, she was first. Had lots of blood at the gum, scared. T.T Next was me, dentist kept poking my gum that was bleeding. -.- Next, Civics and Moral Education. Leela said there was another project coming up, title 'Harmony'. =\ Then, slacked and slacked and did work on 'peer pressure'. Next, Geography. Old man came in, AGAIN . -.-
Then, did work, slacked with Amani. Min Hao and Fan Xing sat beside me. Fan Xing had gay sex with Taufik. =.= Whacked him about 9 times. =p Then, Science. Jeffrey Ang gave test on Reproduction and stuff on sterilization, permanent and temporary methods. Let late for lunch, at about 1.58 . Went to 7-Eleven with Jet Jin, Amani, Min Hao and Keniko. (:
Went back with Amani. Sat at the outside of the classroom, ate my crackers. Sabine, Vanessa, Hiran and Lorenzo all came to eat. BACKSTABBER came and sat at the stone benches. Mood swing twice. _|_ Just get the fuck out of my life, why don't you?! Then, Ms Dancy started her lesson on Social Etiquette - Dining. Learned stuff, didn't pay attention.
Went to 7-Eleven again, with Fan Xing, Jet Jin and Amani. Late by 10 minutes, lied to the teacher that I had a fall. Hiran believed. -.- Then, slack slack slack. Sms-ed him, and was kinda pissed with Abigail, Yin Cai, Mahin, Melissa and Jonie going hyper all of a sudden. Mood swing thrice. Then, went into the car and waved at Amani, Fan Xing, Zhi Cheng, Jet Jin, Min Hao, Sabine, Patrine and Sing Ying. (:
Now slacking at home, end.
Now I know , all I am to you , is an annoying girl that loves you .
Why did you have to give me so much false hope ?
As they said , the higher you climb , the harder you fall .
Looks like I've fallen from the mountain top - the mountain that we built .
You made me feel like I could do anything ,
But why , why did you have to push me down ?
Why did you have to hurt me so badly ?
Why didn't you just tell me that you didn't feel the same ?
Why bother knowing and entering my life , when you're just gonna walk out ?
It hurts so damn fucking much , I don't think you know .
Because you've been hurt 'too much' , that you don't know pain no more .
No more pain could hurt you because you've been hurt over your limit .
You can't feel the emotions of others anymore , you've been hurt .
That's why , my love for you , you can't feel it - you find it ANNOYING .
That's it , the final straw .
You'll be seeing me less often , hearing my words less often ,
You'll see me fading from your memory ,
And you won't see me giving the initiative any longer ,
Because I'll just ignore you and think of you as nothing anymore ,
Because you've really really hurt me this damn much ...
Sayonara .
Signing Out,
Yi Lin (5.54p.m , Tuesday , 3 August 2010)
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Monday, August 2, 2010
Yo ~
Mood-swing today. ):
Damn tired.
So... Woke up, damn dizzy, fell down. Then, ate breakfast, went to school. Plotted some retarded schemes and 'revenge'. o__o Then, Parade Square. Saw Fan Xing, Jet Jin and Amani. Hung out with Amani and Arina, sat beside Haziq and Shohib [Father-in-law & Son respectively]. (: Saw a lot of familiar faces - Jonathan, Hui Shan, Yusuf, backstabber, etc etc.
Then, Morning Assembly. Someone from 1T1 was saying the pledge so loudly. -.- Then, Attire Checking. Miss Kang was in-charge, Mrs Lim was at the Hall. ^^b Then, 4Ns proceeded to the Hall. Saw John Wee, Kristopher, Jonathan, Hui Shan, Hafiz and the others lined up. Then, heard lots of shouting while Mrs Ang was giving us her long and beat-around-the-bush speech. =\
Went back to class. Copied Literature corrections. I only got 13/25 - DAMN IT . >:( Then, Physical Education. Mrs Yeo didn't come, so 2 other teachers took relief. Played Basketball with Abigail, Jet Jin and a few others at half a court, while the other half of girls went to the other court. Amani and Winny slacked by the side. Then, was really really bored.
Went to watch the guys play soccer. So cool. ^^b Keniko and Yang Zhi fell down while playing, and Taufik threw the ball and hit directly onto Jet Jin's back as goalie. Then, P.E ended. Saw 4N having ended their exams and walking down the curb of the road. Saw Jonathan while I was in a bad mood. Said 'hi', then used the ball which I was carrying and kicked it all the way to the Foyer.
Swore in front of Amani and Winny before going back to class. Home Economics - 'GREAT' . Test, didn't know anything and did everything like shit. -.- Farah kept looking at my direction, retarded. -.- Then, Recess. Hung with Ainul, Arina and Amani. Ate, then slacked and walked around from the Canteen to the toilet, and from the toilet to the curb of the road.
Then, Mother Tongue. Worked in groups of 4 - Yong Jun, Abigail and Zhi Cheng. Did work on the YOG, then handed in to Mrs Lim. Then, Jeffrey Ang. =\ Talked about photosynthesis, then went for 5 minutes break after one period. Went out with Amani, to the koi pond. Fan Xing and Jet Jin came down from the stairs. Threw something that will never be remembered and will be forgotten, into it. (:
Our memories will be never-existing ; Our fate has been severed though was fated .
But know this - the person I love: I will love you even if time stops .
Then, continued with lesson. Went to Science Lab, oh the good-old-days. Sat with Devi and Min Hao. Wrote letters to Min Hao and Fan Xing. (: Then, lesson ended. Lawrence Lim. -.- Went to library, wrote the word '烦' which means annoyed, onto a piece of paper. First pen to be sacrificed was the blue one - Fan Xing scribbled all over until the tip broke. =x Mood swing like hell.
Mood swing, shouted and insulted people like hell. Then, back to class. Miss Kang was there, rushed to the Foyer. Did pla-card arranging, all the way until 2.40 . Listened to Karamjit's crap until 2.55 before we were let off. -.- Jonie and Sharlene sneaked off - NO FAIR . ):< Then, went home. End .
Sayonara .
Signing Out,
Yi Lin (3.39p.m , Monday , 2 August 2010)
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Sunday, August 1, 2010
Comparing from the past and my current self ,
I can see that I've changed .
I've became less violent , no longer the same .
But , what am I now ? What have I done ?
Why did I change ? I no longer remember .
Compared to the start of school ,
Many say I've changed .
Some say for the worse , some say for the better .
Who to believe ? Who to trust ?
I've been tricked time and again .
Believing all the wrong people ,
Wronging all the right ones ,
I feel so ... Emotionless ,
As no tears fall while typing these thoughts .
I've changed , to be colder , more quiet , more selfish .
My desires , I don't know .
My thoughts , I don't know .
My dreams , I don't know .
My love , I don't know .
My hatred , I don't know .
I don't know any thing no more .
It's just so painful to think back on everything .
Every single move and word I've said .
Shall I ever have or will hurt you ,
I apologize , because I've changed .
I can't seem to bring myself to hate ,
To love , to forgive , to forget any more .
Everything's changed , I found my reason .
My aim , was to change .
My reason , because he told me to .
If I change , will he love me ?
If I change , will he want me ?
If I change , will he think of me ?
If I change , will he know me ?
If I change , will he accept me ?
No more if (s) , they're all non-existant .
These reasons should never exist .
They never should have , but they did .
So now , I shall just continue changing .
To be another Yi Lin , one that no one will know .
The one alone ...
The one that no one will remember ...
The one that no one will think of ...
The one that no one will know ...
The one that no one will recognize ...
Yes .., that one ... Is me ...
To the one whom I love :
Forgive me .
Slap me .
Punch me .
Shake me .
Wake me up from this nightmare .
Please , I beg of you .
It's really painful .
Tell me you're here .
Tell me you'll help me ,
Tell me you'll be here for me .
Please ...
End all this ...
I swear to God , I want nothing else .
But two things ;
To kill the pain , and his love to be mine .
Nothing else .... I swear .....
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Everything's hurting like fuck right now ,
I have no idea why .
I woke up with tears in my eyes ,
And I wiped it away ,
Continue with my boring every life .
Staring at the computer screen .
Remembering that day you were here ,
Watching your Bleach , not at me .
Merely using the handphone charger ,
Nothing else , just watching .
Hit you with a cushion to attract your attention ,
You hit me ten times back ,
'Burying' me within it , I claimed it was fun .
My actual thoughts were that I successfully ,
Successfully told you that I wanted something else .
But there you go , as the phone rang .
Rushed out of the door , and not even waving back .
All just memories , memories that should be forgotten .
But they just stay , rewinding and rewinding all day long .
Slap me out of this , seriously , I need help .
As I open my wallet every single day ,
I see two rings - One belonged to him , the other to you .
As the days' memories flow back into me ,
All I feel is guilt and misery .
I just can't seem to put you behind .
I feel the pain that you once felt ,
Until you loved another , I was happy .
Happy that you forgot about me , that you moved on .
Happy that you no longer remember me -
The one who brought nothing but pain onto you .
But , on the other hand .
I was sad . Saddened by the fact of not knowing if it was true .
Since you've moved on , so have I .
I've cleansed myself of the emotion called ' Guilt ' .
The guilt I once had , perished since that day .
And when I see the ring that belonged to you ,
I just await , as these days go by , more things happen .
Much more will come , I know of it , I trust my senses .
6 days , I can wait . Wait for the day , you'll put it on .
So for now , let me close my eyes .
Take a break , a nice long nap .
Waking up to a brand new day , no , a brand new world .
Having forgotten everything , I'll start anew .
The past , the love , the happiness , the sorrow .
All put behind . And back to square one .
I'll try to do so , as actions speak louder than words .
Just promise me , at the finishing line ,
Let me see your gentle smile , just one last time .
Before you leave , let me do something to make you remember .
Remember this girl that once lived in your life .
<3 .
End of Post <3 @ 10:44 AM
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About
Name:
Wong Yi Lin
Date of Birth; Zodiac; Horoscope:
160997; Ox; Virgo, the Virgin
Personality:
Emotional, Pessimistic
Motto:
Never assume you know everything
Don't pretend to understand
Loves:
Anime, Animals, Friends
Hates:
People who are not trustworthy,
Childish, Backstabbing etc
Relationship Status:
Single
Schools:
Kheng Cheng School;
P1.7 '04
P2.7 '05
P3.7 '06
P4.4 '07
P5.3 '08
P6.3 '09
Balestier Hill Secondary;
1E2 '10
Co-Curricular Activity;
Art Club, Crafts
Chess Club
Chinese Orchestra
Green Club
Lion Dance
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Last updated: 030810, 1808
Loved Ones
MEET THE PEEPS I LOVE !
Grievances
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Acquaintances
KCS:
KCS P6.3 '09 ♥
Alison ♥
Anzoe ♥
Charissa ♥
Claire Liew ♥
Claire Wong ♥
Germaine ♥
Isabelle ♥
Jamine ♥
Jonie ♥
Kailin ♥
Monica ♥
Natsumi ♥
Nichapat ♥
Rochelle ♥
Selina ♥
Sheena ♥
Sing Ying ♥
Tze Wan ♥
Violet ♥
Wan Ling ♥
Wei Jun ♥
Winnie ♥
Yvette ♥
BHSS:
4E1 '09 Batch ♥
Abigail ♥
Adelle ♥
Agnes ♥
Ainul ♥
Alexandrela Eunice Valentino Rae ♥
Alicia ♥
Amani ♥
Arina ♥
Azman ♥
Ban Siang ♥
Beatrice ♥
Cai Xuan ♥
Dawn ♥
Diana ♥
Derek ♥
Edwin ♥
Eunice Lim ♥
Hafiz ♥
Hui Shan ♥
Ivy ♥
Janice ♥
Jasmine ♥
Javin ♥
Jiaru ♥
Jiayean ♥
Jin Hui ♥
Jonathan ♥
Jun Huang ♥
Kim Hong ♥
Mahin ♥
Melissa ♥
Mern An ♥
Ming Fu ♥
Muan Ting ♥
Naomi ♥
Natalie Hue ♥
Natalie Loh ♥
Patrine ♥
Qi Tian ♥
Rujiana ♥
Ryo Yamamoto ♥
Shangzhi ♥
Sin Yee ♥
Sing Ying ♥
Vanessa ♥
Wayne ♥
WendyN ♥
Winny ♥
Winny's Blogshop ♥
Yanching ♥
Yin Teng ♥
Ying Xia ♥
Yu Liang ♥
Yuen Yern ♥
Yuke Jen ♥
Yusuf ♥
Zhung An ♥
Others:
Known via Internet:
Agnes ♥
As Ahmad ♥
Cynthia ♥
Dana ♥
Erica ♥
Esther ♥
Phoebe ♥
Qing ♥
Theresa ♥
Yuqian ♥
Friends (Met Face-to-face):
Jay ♥
Teng Yao ♥
XiaoFang ♥
Celebrity Blogger:
Dasmond Koh
Felicia Chin (1)
Felicia Chin (2)
Jeanette Aw
Joanna Peh
Zheng Bin Hui
Wishes
School:
200+ for PSLE ! ♥
A1 ~ A2 for English ! ♥
Able to have Recess w/ Seniors ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Adam ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Alicia ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Catherine ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Chang Long ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Eunice ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Hafiz ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Janice ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Kristopher ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Li Ting ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Sarah ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Terrence ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Xin Rong ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Yan Ching ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Yusuf ! ♥
Able to meet and talk to Yu Liang ! ♥
Continue in Express until Graduate ! ♥
Get 24 Points & Above for NAPFA ! ♥
Good Results for SA ! ♥
Outings:
AFA '10 ! ♥
Chalet Party '10 ! ♥
Go out with DaJie, Ty and QH ! ♥
Go out to Bugis with Jon, DaJie and Ty !
1 , 2, 3 ! ♥
Go out w/ Dearest Friends on B'day ! ♥
Go out w/ Friends in Holidays ! ♥
Go back to KCS @ TCY ! ♥
Go to Japan ! ♥
Go to next Class Gathering ! ♥
Go to Siloso Beach ! ♥
Go to Sunway Lagoon ! ♥
Go to Wild-Wild Wet ! ♥
Go watch Toy Story 3 ! ♥
Outing w/ P6.3 '09 ! ♥
Outing w/ Alicia ! ♥
Outing w/ Amani ! ♥
Outing w/ Anzoe ! ♥
Outing w/ Fan Xing ! ♥
Outing w/ Jonathan ! ♥
Outing w/ Jonie ! ♥
Outing w/ Natsumi ! ♥
Outing w/ QH ! ♥
Outing w/ Sarah ! ♥
Outing w/ Teng Yao ! ♥
Outing w/ Winnie ! ♥
Outing w/ Xiaofang ! ♥
New Stuff:
Class Tee 1e2; 6.3 ! ♥
Gasing ! ♥
GIANT Lollipop ! ♥
A Room of my own ! ♥
New Schoolbag ! ♥
New Cap ! ♥
New Clothes ! ♥
New Handphone ! ♥
New Hard Disk ! ♥
New Hat ! ♥
New Headphones ! ♥
New Hoodie ! ♥
New Jacket ! ♥
New Laptop ! ♥
New Mini-skirt ! ♥
New Polo-Tee ! ♥
New Slippers ! ♥
New Skirt ! ♥
New Sneakers ! ♥
Practice-room for Er Hu ! ♥
Roy Mustang's Glove ! ♥
Sketch Book ! ♥
Sketches:
Sketch Akabane ! ♥
Sketch Arbiter ! ♥
Sketch Allen Walker ! ♥
Sketch Ban ! ♥
Sketch Envy ! ♥
Sketch Full-Metal ! ♥
Sketch Ginji ! ♥
Sketch Greed ! ♥
SKetch Himiko ! ♥
Sketch Inuyasha ! ♥
Sketch Jasdero ! ♥
Sketch Kanda Yu ! ♥
Sketch Kagome ! ♥
Sketch Kazuki ! ♥
Sketch Lust ! ♥
Sketch MakubeX ! ♥
Sketch Naruto ! ♥
Sketch Roy Mustang ! ♥
Sketch Sasuke ! ♥
Sketch Shido ! ♥
Sketch Sloth ! ♥
Sketch Wrath ! ♥
Sketch Nice Anime ! ♥
Others:
Be with the guy I love ! ♥
Cook a dish for Him ! ♥
Find my True Friends ! ♥
Find the Right Guy ! ♥
Forget the Past ! ♥
Get into Performing Arts ! ♥
Get to know good seniors ! ♥
Learn Japanese ! ♥
Learn Sign Language ! ♥
Meet Xiaofang's Cousin ! ♥
More Open-minded ! ♥
More Freedom ! ♥
More Money ! ♥
No Hot-temper ! ♥
No Violence ! ♥
Sun-burn gone ! ♥
"Love-wound" to heal ! ♥
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