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Sunday, August 1, 2010

Comparing from the past and my current self ,
I can see that I've changed .
I've became less violent , no longer the same .
But , what am I now ? What have I done ?
Why did I change ? I no longer remember .

Compared to the start of school ,
Many say I've changed .
Some say for the worse , some say for the better .
Who to believe ? Who to trust ?
I've been tricked time and again .

Believing all the wrong people ,
Wronging all the right ones ,
I feel so ... Emotionless ,
As no tears fall while typing these thoughts .
I've changed , to be colder , more quiet , more selfish .

My desires , I don't know .
My thoughts , I don't know .
My dreams , I don't know .
My love , I don't know .
My hatred , I don't know .

I don't know any thing no more .
It's just so painful to think back on everything .
Every single move and word I've said .
Shall I ever have or will hurt you ,
I apologize , because I've changed .

I can't seem to bring myself to hate ,
To love , to forgive , to forget any more .
Everything's changed , I found my reason .
My aim , was to change .
My reason , because he told me to .

If I change , will he love me ?
If I change , will he want me ?
If I change , will he think of me ?
If I change , will he know me ?
If I change , will he accept me ?

No more if (s) , they're all non-existant .
These reasons should never exist .
They never should have , but they did .
So now , I shall just continue changing .
To be another Yi Lin , one that no one will know .

The one alone ...
The one that no one will remember ...
The one that no one will think of ...
The one that no one will know ...
The one that no one will recognize ...
Yes .., that one ... Is me ...

To the one whom I love :
Forgive me .
Slap me .
Punch me .
Shake me .

Wake me up from this nightmare .
Please , I beg of you .
It's really painful .
Tell me you're here .
Tell me you'll help me ,
Tell me you'll be here for me .

Please ...
End all this ...
I swear to God , I want nothing else .
But two things ;
To kill the pain , and his love to be mine .
Nothing else .... I swear .....

End of Post <3 @ 10:51 PM
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About

Name:

  • Wong Yi Lin
    Date of Birth; Zodiac; Horoscope:
  • 160997; Ox; Virgo, the Virgin
    Personality:
  • Emotional, Pessimistic
    Motto:
  • Never assume you know everything
  • Don't pretend to understand
    Loves:
  • Anime, Animals, Friends
    Hates:
  • People who are not trustworthy,
    Childish, Backstabbing etc
    Relationship Status:
  • Single


    Schools:

    Kheng Cheng School;
    P1.7 '04
    P2.7 '05
    P3.7 '06
    P4.4 '07
    P5.3 '08
    P6.3 '09

    Balestier Hill Secondary;
    1E2 '10

    Co-Curricular Activity;
    Art Club, Crafts
    Chess Club
    Chinese Orchestra
    Green Club
    Lion Dance


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    DEVI ; GAN JIE !
    GRACE.T ; SCARYY !
    LORENZO.G ; GAN KOR !
    MAHIN ; GAN JIE !
    SABINE ; SINGERR !
    SINYEE ; FLYINGG FISH !
    XINRONG ; GAN JIE !
    YANCHING ; GAN JIE !
    YUSUF ; JOKERR !
    ZIEGLER ; GAN KOR !


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  • KCS:
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    Alison ♥
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    Charissa ♥
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    Teng Yao ♥
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    Dasmond Koh
    Felicia Chin (1)
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    Jeanette Aw
    Joanna Peh
    Zheng Bin Hui
    Wishes


    School:

    200+ for PSLE ! ♥
    A1 ~ A2 for English ! ♥
    Able to have Recess w/ Seniors ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Adam ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Alicia ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Catherine ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Chang Long ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Eunice ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Hafiz ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Janice ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Kristopher ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Li Ting ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Sarah ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Terrence ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Xin Rong ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Yan Ching ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Yusuf ! ♥
    Able to meet and talk to Yu Liang ! ♥
    Continue in Express until Graduate ! ♥
    Get 24 Points & Above for NAPFA ! ♥
    Good Results for SA ! ♥


    Outings:

    AFA '10 ! ♥
    Chalet Party '10 ! ♥
    Go out with DaJie, Ty and QH ! ♥
    Go out to Bugis with Jon, DaJie and Ty !
    1 , 2, 3 ! ♥
    Go out w/ Dearest Friends on B'day ! ♥
    Go out w/ Friends in Holidays ! ♥
    Go back to KCS @ TCY ! ♥
    Go to Japan ! ♥
    Go to next Class Gathering ! ♥
    Go to Siloso Beach ! ♥
    Go to Sunway Lagoon ! ♥
    Go to Wild-Wild Wet ! ♥
    Go watch Toy Story 3 ! ♥
    Outing w/ P6.3 '09 ! ♥
    Outing w/ Alicia ! ♥
    Outing w/ Amani ! ♥
    Outing w/ Anzoe ! ♥
    Outing w/ Fan Xing ! ♥
    Outing w/ Jonathan ! ♥
    Outing w/ Jonie ! ♥
    Outing w/ Natsumi ! ♥
    Outing w/ QH ! ♥
    Outing w/ Sarah ! ♥
    Outing w/ Teng Yao ! ♥
    Outing w/ Winnie ! ♥
    Outing w/ Xiaofang ! ♥


    New Stuff:

    Class Tee 1e2; 6.3 ! ♥
    Gasing ! ♥
    GIANT Lollipop ! ♥
    A Room of my own ! ♥
    New Schoolbag ! ♥
    New Cap ! ♥
    New Clothes ! ♥
    New Handphone ! ♥
    New Hard Disk ! ♥
    New Hat ! ♥
    New Headphones ! ♥
    New Hoodie ! ♥
    New Jacket ! ♥
    New Laptop ! ♥
    New Mini-skirt ! ♥
    New Polo-Tee ! ♥
    New Slippers ! ♥
    New Skirt ! ♥
    New Sneakers ! ♥
    Practice-room for Er Hu ! ♥
    Roy Mustang's Glove ! ♥
    Sketch Book ! ♥


    Sketches:

    Sketch Akabane ! ♥
    Sketch Arbiter ! ♥
    Sketch Allen Walker ! ♥
    Sketch Ban ! ♥
    Sketch Envy ! ♥
    Sketch Full-Metal ! ♥
    Sketch Ginji ! ♥
    Sketch Greed ! ♥
    SKetch Himiko ! ♥
    Sketch Inuyasha ! ♥
    Sketch Jasdero ! ♥
    Sketch Kanda Yu ! ♥
    Sketch Kagome ! ♥
    Sketch Kazuki ! ♥
    Sketch Lust ! ♥
    Sketch MakubeX ! ♥
    Sketch Naruto ! ♥
    Sketch Roy Mustang ! ♥
    Sketch Sasuke ! ♥
    Sketch Shido ! ♥
    Sketch Sloth ! ♥
    Sketch Wrath ! ♥
    Sketch Nice Anime ! ♥


    Others:

    Be with the guy I love ! ♥
    Cook a dish for Him ! ♥
    Find my True Friends ! ♥
    Find the Right Guy ! ♥
    Forget the Past ! ♥
    Get into Performing Arts ! ♥
    Get to know good seniors ! ♥
    Learn Japanese ! ♥
    Learn Sign Language ! ♥
    Meet Xiaofang's Cousin ! ♥
    More Open-minded ! ♥
    More Freedom ! ♥
    More Money ! ♥
    No Hot-temper ! ♥
    No Violence ! ♥
    Sun-burn gone ! ♥
    "Love-wound" to heal ! ♥


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